“I love him but he does not love me.”
“I love him but he loves somebody else.”
“I love him but he doesn’t know it”.
I love him but am afraid it might ruin our friendship.”
These are some of what my friends usually say to me when they ask for
some advice. I am neither a “love genius” nor someone who had a degree
on Bachelor of Arts in Love and Relationships. I probably can say
that am an observer of life and love and I’ve learned a lot thru that.
(though this wouldn’t give a license for me to advice, but anyway, we r
on a democratic country…everyone is free to write whats on his mind as
long as he knows his limitation)
Back to my topic…
Just like any other girl, fairytales and movies end with “…and they
live happily ever after” make me believe that love exists to stand and
stay- and because of that idea, I have started to dream and create my
own love story for so long. They differ depending on what situations or
emotions are driving me in- and believe me, those stories could
probably win an Oscar award if given a chance to be seen on the big
screen.
A man wearing his best suit ever while looking directly on my eyes
saying how much he loves me, a romantic place where there are only two
people- me and my man (and of course, our dear moon, shining his light
towards us) and a nice dinner date with endless love songs playing.
These are some of the content of my dreams and it feels good when you
imagine yourself with someone, somewhere in those dreams, but it strikes
your heart hard when you open your eyes, and finally realize that
everything is just a “smoke” destined to vanished as soon as the air
whispers.
What am I saying? well in the real world, you could not simply say “I
love you”. There is always a “but” which makes it complicated. The “but”
becomes a big hindrance why people can’t simply express their
feelings.
Throughout the history of lovekind, we were given the idea that love is
something which is out of this world. It has been a subject of endless
poems and other literatures. Both give us an idea of what love is, but
it doesn’t end there because we usually question the validity ff such
definition.
William Shakespeare believes in love but most of his stories often
involves conflict which is the “but” in love. Romeo and Juliet love each
other but society demands the opposite. Paris loves Juliet but she
loves Romeo. Romeo at first loves Rosaline but she is unreachable. These
are just some of the “but” which Shakespear believes in when it comes
to love.
So, the bottom line here is that, why love needs to be complicated?
Can’t people just love and be happy? Why instead of saying, “I love
you”, we usually say, “I love you but…”?
Why is it like that? Perhaps, even Doctor love couldn’t answer that.
As for me, love becomes complicated because we make it that way. We
decide how to react on certain things which evolves on love. We are the
one who chooses what feeling to share or not to share.
It’s nice to be in love, but watch out to the “buts” that surrounds
this word. When love becomes painful, its time to let go but for some
people, its the time to hold even tighter. Its your choice anyway:-)
Its the time of the year again when we all have to say goodbye to something... or someone. What's new anyway. While all people are making noises outside, watching the fireworks display and cheering for the coming year. Yet, I found myself again in my room trying to think what went wrong. Why am I still in the same room... alone? My family is with me. My mother and my siblings. Well I guess I'm not the only one with the same situation. Every new year, we always hope for something better. We always pray for a change. Its tiring at times. I always wonder if there is a mirror or a machine where we can see what the whole year has for us. And if something happened that we dont like, we will have the chance to make a different decision right from the very beginning. Oh well, I guess I better deal with it. After all, its what makes life more interesting... not being able to predict what tomorrow holds.
Bring it on 2016!
Online Fashion Shopping has been a trend nowadays. It's convenient for some people since they don't have to go out to the shop to get the latest fashion trends. But when doing an online shopping, risk is always a part of it. Yes, you can see the items but a lot of things need to be consider when shopping online. You need to do some research as how credible the online shop where you want to spend your money to. Security might not be a major problem now since most of the big online shops accept COD or Cash On Delivery.
Now to help you a bit, I'll share my experience with Zalora.
I've been seeing lots of Advertisements of Zalora almost everywhere and was long thinking of buying items there. Akala ko the items they are selling would be super expensive since most are branded. One night, I got bored and was browsing my Facebook page and there was a Zalora Ad looking at me. So I jumped in, and hit the gun! :) I ordered three items. The total price was about 1,400 pesos but because of some promo voucher, I only paid about 1,150 pesos. It was free shipping for orders above 995 so I also got that. It was a good deal indeed. I paid via credit card by the way and I'm ok with it. Zalora also accepts Cash On Delivery so you have nothing to worry when you don't have a credit card or not confident using it online.
Few minutes after I paid my order, I already got a confirmation text from Zalora. Wow! I was impressed, considering I ordered my items about midnight and I thought they were asleep during that time or at least operate during the working hours. In every progress of my orders, they texted me. And guess what? my orders were delivered to me in just a day! They call it Zalora Express Delivery. They even texted me the name of the person who will deliver it to me.
Time to check my items...
The packaging was done very well. For my items... uuhmmm, I guess this is where you really need to know your size. I had a problem with one of my orders. It was bigger than my size. I almost regret ordering it, thank goodness Zalora has a 30 Days Return... and yes for Free. You can either ask for an exchange or a refund. In my case, I had to exchange my item to a smaller size. I just had to filled-up their return form, dropped my item to LBC and that was it. I didn't pay anything at all. Just make sure to return your item in its original condition, with tag still intact. In their return rules, they said that processing of return items will take 7 business days so I already set my mind to wait for another 7 days. To my surprise, it only took them 2 days. My return item was also delivered via Zalora Express. And I got a perfect size this time.
Happy camper here! :)
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Dear 2015,
Few hours from now, you will be coming to my life. I want you to know
how excited I am to welcome you. I'm sure it will be an awesome 365 days
with you, just like how it was with your older brother, 2014. I will
miss him. There were some bad moments, as it was with your previous
brothers, nevertheless, he did a great job I must say. He took me to
some nice places, let me spent some times
with the one I love, and introduced new wonderful friends to me.
Surely, it is hard to let him go as he is taking some memories along
too.
Once you meet 2014 on the way here, please tell him how thankful I am. I will never forget him.
Oh by the way, a lot of people will throw huge parties and entertainments just to celebrate your arrival. Although we treat you as special as possible, please be aware that it might only be on the 1st day. There will be a LOT of work to do for you in the next 365 days. Your brother 2014, has left some unfinished jobs and we are hoping that you would be able to finish them. Please don't forget to bring Happiness, Peace and Love with you as you come. They will be of great companions. We all need them here.
God told me too that HE has a lot of wonderful things HE asked you to give to me when you come. I am looking forward to them
See you soon!
Jan
I've received this message from a stranger. It was cute so I decided to post it here ;)
Here it goes;
I want you to know that women are like apples on the trees. The best
ones are on the top of the tree. Most men don’t want to reach for the
good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead
they sometimes take the apples from the ground but they are not as good
but easy. The apples at the top think there is something wrong with
them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the
right man to come along. The one who is brave enough to go all the way
to top of the tree.
Now, men are like a fine wine. They begin as grapes and its up to women
to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something
acceptable to have dinner with
You can stomp on me anytime you want to and I am a very brave man who would climb that tree for you.......
You are very beautiful...I hope you find the man of your dreams and
when you do, I hope that that man will see and understand what a
precious gift he has just received!!
Watch yourself because there are wolves (men with wrong intentions) on this site
Remember to KEEP YOUR WALL up and when you can find the man who can
slowly and patiently slower your wall down ..then you'll know that you
have found him..
Do not be too transparent (give out too much info) on this site, leave
enough to make him want to come back. And see how much he will.. if he
is serious he will always contact you even if you not online.. also do
not reply back at all times..make him think you're busy talking to
someone else..if he truly wants you.. you will be worth the wait to
him!! (I would wait for you) anyways ..
I am not expecting a reply..I just wanted to tell you .take care of yourself beautiful!
From a certain "World Traveler"
I just want to share this poem I saw in one of the forums I'm following. It's written by a certain member named Eliza. It actually describes what I'm feeling now.
I miss being in Love…
I miss how it feels warm and peaceful inside
I miss those calls just to say he’s thinking of you
I miss embracing him while laying by his side
I miss that feeling of intimacy when you know it’s so true
I miss being in Love…
I miss coming home to his arms open wide
I miss dancing together to sweet loves melodies when your in the mood
I miss making silly faces just to pissed him off
I miss throwing jokes and makes his face turns to red
I miss being in Love…
I miss those long walks side by side where our hands meet and held so tight
I miss when he makes me smile when I was feeling so blue
I miss being in Love…
I miss saying I'm sorry when it was my fault because God knows I’ve tried
But the most precious moment I miss is saying those meaningful words… I love you
Well... I don't really miss someone from my past...
I JUST SIMPLY MISS BEING IN LOVE.
Who would that be? No idea, I just know that he's gonna be worth the wait! ;)
The "Joy Luck Club" is one of the
interesting movies I have ever seen. This was an adaptation of Amy Tan's
novel about the four Chinese women bound together by hope.
Wayne
Wang's directorial style is truly a remarkable and commendable. He uses
flashbacks to connect 16 different stories. The movie might be more
focused on the feminine side of life since the movie does not have a
major male actor. However, despite of this one-sided view, I must admit,
I was captured by the movie's emotional pull. Every line speaks
directly to my heart.
Amy Tan did a good job writing this novel, and Wayne Wang for putting this in the big picture. The story focuses on four Chinese immigrants families in San Francisco who started the club known as "The Joy Luck Club".
For a non-movie fanatic, the story may be a bit confusing because it's a story within a story which some people can hardy follow.
Many times in my life, I was dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions I made and the circumstances around. When I hit a wall of failure, it was often resulted in feelings of worthlessness.
Those were the moments wherein, I just found myself sitting back and pitying myself. I based my life’s worth then on what I can do and what I own.
But attending a Christian fellowship for some years taught me to trust on what God says about me. Not on what I knew and not what I saw or heard from the world. It took me through a time of rediscovery, affirming myself clearly that I was on the right track and that my worth was still derived from the truth that I am created in His image.
These truths helped me securely understand that I have a great worth. My worth is given by God and can’t be taken away by failures.
Last weekend I
went to my home church in Pampanga, which for me is one of the happiest
places on earth. I sing with people who have the same faith as I do,
while jumping because of the joy brought by the praise songs. While I
was there I considered making the following resolutions: to be happy, to
relax and to see old friends. I was able to fulfill the last two
resolutions. However, to be happy, on its real sense seems far from me.
People
want happiness. It might be a cliche already but being happy has been
the ultimate goal of everyone- it is the ultimate goal of my life.
I have been taught by my Pastor that happiness does not depend on whom you are with or what you have with- it’s a matter of choice. You are happy because you choose to be happy, and you are sad because you choose to be sad. Quite simple, but definitely hard to do.
Like in my situation, wherein I am torn between two paths. Both would lead me to happiness, but the question on which one would lead to a greater happiness remains a quest for me.
These thoughts were triggered more by a song I heard on a radio with the lyrics, “Do you know, where you are going to? Do you like the things that life is showing you? Where are you going to? Do you know?…”
I
have been thinking about the same questions for sometimes. Then I
finally realize that I am still confused on which path should I walk
into.
I decided to study Mass Communication to fulfill a vision. That vision is to work as an Advocate of a Christian organization who is fighting for women’s rights. A big company in Europe supported me on this journey. Right then, I said to myself that I am ready to play my role in that organization. But things do not happen the same way as we see it. The Christian organization was closed last year. At first, I am sad because that would mean, I do not have a “sure” job, as what I call it. But this journey should continue. I choose to see myself in another way- in a more broad area where I can see myself competing with other people looking for a job and exploring the world of media. Somehow, it gives excitement to me. I have fear, but the faith is more evident.
I am ready to step my feet on that uncertainty until the company who is supporting me offers me the same work as what I supposed to be working in that Christian organization. I am happy but I do not understand why I can not find that intense feeling inside of me.
The two choices leave me with confusion. Should I take the risk and do what I want, although I am not sure of what awaits to me? Or should I accept the job which my scholarship offers to me? Would it be ungrateful if I say no to them? But how about my freedom to choose?
Those
were only some of the questions on my mind. But whatever choice I made,
I know that at the end of the day…It would still lead me to happiness.
Greater or lesser happiness?- that I still do not know
I've created this blog simply to express my ideas and feelings. I
often have dull moments when I feel like writing, and just trying to
make something out of those dull moments. This is more like a personal diary of mine but I won't mind sharing my thoughts and feelings to
others.
There are too much to say, but it's much better to let the pages show them off. So, let the keyboard runs...
"Things aren't easy, but life is too beautiful for someone
who is not afraid to explore and too generous for someone
who knows to give back."- Unknown
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